Sewing for sanity is my motto. I try and fit in sewing in every brief moment I can steal and here’s why….
I have 5 year old twins who changed my life. I found out I was pregnant with twins on March 9, 2012. Kind of weird that I remember the day, I guess; but holy crap, I remember so much about that morning. My mom was visiting and stayed with my older three children (the youngest of whom was only about 15 months old). My obstetrician does ultrasounds at 8 weeks to confirm pregnancies and guesstimate the due date. My husband came with me to check on baby number 4, who we were planning to be our fourth and final baby. The ultrasound technician immediately said, “healthy heartbeat, healthy baby,” and as I looked over at my husband and was squeezing his hand when the technician said, “and another healthy baby, healthy heartbeat.” My head whipped around so fast and the words, “You’ve got to be (expletive) kidding me!” popped out before I could breathe. The technician laughed uncomfortably and said, “No ma’am, here’s baby A and here is baby B. You’re pregnant with twins!” I looked back to my husband and the poor man looks like he’s going to pass out. We got a standing ovation in the hallway as we left the ultrasound room. We were in shock as we spoke with the doctor. We were in shock as we parted ways in the parking lot–he for work and me to pick up my dad (who was coming for a visit). I think I even called him once I got in the car so we could both be in shock together. I remember showing my dad the ultrasound pictures and him laughing and saying, “What?? TWINS??”
And so it went. We laughed. I don’t think we cried. I can’t actually remember. Through all of it, I wasn’t able to sew or really sit for very long at all before my back would start hurting. We moved 600 miles to be closer to family. When the twins were born, it was just as crazy as you can imagine. I breastfed the twins and life just kept on chugging. Breastfeeding twins is ridiculous. I look back and wonder what in the world I was thinking. But, here’s the thing–I hate doing dishes and I’ve never made a bottle. So, in one sense, it was just easier. However, moving to a new town, having twins, and basically being a hermit isn’t really good for anyone. I went back to sewing as soon as I could sit at the table for any length of time. Then I started sewing every night after I got the babies in bed. It became a time of meditation, prayer, and quiet solitude. I was literally sewing for sanity. My husband would come in to sit and talk with me, but I rarely turned on a TV or had any other noise beyond my sewing machines. I would sew from about 6pm to midnight…every night. While it’s easy to get sucked into the weeds and focus on all of the noise, having that quiet time really helps me reflect on everything I have and to focus on gratitude.
I’m slightly repeating history these days. I had another daughter in May and I swear we’re done now (for real this time!). I feel myself focusing on the exhaustion, the sticky fingers, the mess of a house, the unfinished work, and the crazy everything. I’m not good at planning out my gifts and I’m a terrible procrastinator, but I’m good at sewing. And, frankly, it’s how I maintain my sanity. When I first started 5 out of 4, my tag line was “regaining sanity, one craft at a time.” So, that’s what I’m doing. I’m sewing for sanity again.
Right now, I have a few pinspired shirts I’m working on to share in the 5oo4 SewPinspired contest that ends this week. I’m also attempting to write up some breastfeeding hacks for the blog. We have a lot of breastfeeding friendly patterns, but I thought I’d try a few other styles with some of my favorite patterns (like this Nancy Raglan). I try and sew every day. It’s exercise for my brain. It helps me reorganize my thoughts and prioritize my to do list. The puzzles of how patterns fit together and how I’m able to combine ideas to create something new clutters my brain at all hours and in all environments. Sewing helps me find peace and focus on feeling grateful for this messy life. Thank you for being a part of it!
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Monday Nov 6th: mahlicadesigns
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Monday Nov 20th: My Heart will Sew On
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Nov 22nd: Back 40 Life
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